Stupidity and emotions took over me last night. The magma in my mind boiling at more than 100C. The cells of ignorance just halted their production minutes ago. What is wrong with me? Can’t I just ignore and let it be?

In fact, it was not so good since the night before. I was glued to the television for it was live telecast of the women’s single finals of Badminton World Championship which was held in Madrid. At that same moment, there came a guest. As normal, my parents chit chatted with them, however, all of a sudden I heard shouts and foul language. Next, a big bang which sounds like the sound of the main gate. Then, a lorry drove away in a very rough manner. I was quite blur at that moment, after that I off the television and slipped back into my younger brother’s room, trying to ignore anything that happened.

Being happy that everything was over by the next day, I decided to have a long nap, just to pamper myself and boost myself up to study. Things did not end with my peaceful nap. Two cars collided at the junction of my house due to the recklessness of a youngster. I was quite annoyed. (Imagine half way through your peaceful little nap, someone scared you up.)

That night itself the tragedy happened again (which can be considered as the after-effect of the two incidents above). I started the ‘engine’ again. I was overwhelmed by those harsh words till I did not even think of the consequences before igniting the ‘engine’. I regretted so much. I was in tears. I hate myself for being as reckless as the driver. With guilt n dread, I tried to fix the ‘engine’ back into pieces as a way of saying “Sorry…” It did not work out though. I could not imagine how it would be without my ‘master’ with me.

I really love this ‘engine’. I really do. He does not know how to express himself well, I can understand. I did not mean to hurt him for the second time. It was just an act of stupidity. Sorry…

Da casualty in d Engineering Maths Test 2 Crisis was devastating. It was yday afternoon. I was walkin up d stairs of The Faculty of Engineering Building with heavy footsteps, doubtful 2 check my results for i know that i'l cry if i fail this test.

I was lucky enuf dat i din fail. Lookin at d bright me, it was sad too 2 c sum of my frens who din get 2 pass. N this bring my mind bak 2 d day we took d test. Da whole bunch of us decided 2 sit at d last row of d exam hall, i was cool with it not until i found dat my fren's were cheatin in d exam. I dun mean 2 point fingers towards any1 out there.I admit that i did supply answers 2 them, which i felt dat it was reli so stupid of me.

Thn lookin at d results, i found dat those who din reli study got better results than those who put in dozens n dozens of effort.Y must it be so unfair?Mayb folks out there will say dat it's up 2 d studyin style of individuals, wether they study hard o smart. But i knw dat sum of those who got gd results take things 4 granted, n i reli hope dat they wil look bak n tink bout it. Is it ur true result? Not 2 say dat u r sorry 4 others, r u sorry 4 urself? What r d consequences of doin so?

Remember, there r certain things dat u hv 2 pay n sacrifice in order 2 hit d target. It's not mere luck. Ur lucky star won't b shining bright 4 long if u stay on with dis attitude.

Da moment of 'excitement' arrives, increasing the produciton rate of hormones namely 'nervous' n 'panic'. Why do we hv 2 face examinations? Dis make me tink d purpose of studyin so hard. For education? For results?

Finals are around d corner already, however, d atmosphere is way too different from malacca.I can sense d urgency of it. Ironically, my muscles are not movin, not willing 2 reach 4 my notes. I feel damn guilty for this.

"Come on, irene!", d phrase keep on comin, too bad ruined by d devil inside me."Nvm Irene!u stil hv plenty of time!", dis was wat it says.

Studyin in Malacca n Cyberjaya is reli different. The intensity is at a different level. Of coz, the stability of mood is oso at a different level. Thinkin logically, it's stil up 2 myself, all i can do is 2 force myself 2 study n revise. I know dis sounds like torturing myself, doin d things dat i dun like. I jz hv 2 find fun out of studyin n revisin.

Folks, hv any remedies 4 laziness?

Yee...ha! Finally i'm usin this 2 blog rather than usin friendster. Honestly, it had been long long time ago since i've updated my blog in friendster. That's y i decided to create a new blog here.This, i hv 2 thank all table 6 member too, for they r d ones who kept on buggin on me, askin me 2 start a new blog here.Thanks guys...

Folks out there, my language may not be superb or fancy enuf...but i'l try my best 2 express myself here.hehe...

This is an introductory only...In future, there'l b a lot of blogs decribing my life here in Cyberjaya n sum special events happenin around me.Table 6 members...let's keep in touch in dis way although we can't meet up everytime.