With time flying at the speed of light, my 2nd semester in MMU Cyberjaya had reached its half. This semester is a short semester, where we have to stuff so many things into our complicated brain in just 8 weeks. And now, here am I in the 4th week.

This week is the busiest week for this semester. I wonder how come I am still updating my blog here. Let's have a look at my schedule for this week...

Mon: Electronics Lab(this is the most stressful lab of all labs)

Tues: Taekwondo training and study

Wed: Digital Logic Lab(still quite stressful) and Digital Logic midterm test

Thurs: Taekwondo training and assignments

Fri: See academic advisor, study for Electronics midterm test and assignments

Sat: Poomsae training, study and assignments again...

God bless me...please....let me do well in my digital logic midterm test and please....give me the strength and guidance to go through such ordeal....

However, I am actually looking forward to this weekend because my relative came back from Australia for holidays and will be having fun with her again. Yay.....

Looking at people around me starting to fall into the game of love, it is really time to look back into my own perspective of love. Perhaps I am not willing to get involved in it, or is it that I don’t dare to. I really don’t know…

Love is just so subjective. It depends on how one look at it. Some will think that it is a must in life. Some may take it as supplementary nutrients in life. Some will take it as a kind of indulgence.

To me, love is like some decoration accessories for our life, as to make it more colorful and more memorable. Imagine, you had a Christmas party with a huge Christmas tree, having variation of decoration accessories. The variation of colors symbolizes the variety of emotions and actions that love can bring to one’s life. It is these emotions and actions that make one’s life more memorable.

Depending on what kind of love we are talking about here. Of course, in this case we are talking about opposite sex relationships. While in this case, I can say that one can either live with or without it.

With love, life will be more wonderful and meaningful. It is the memories, also, some precious experience and lessons you have learnt between you and your partner that can be cherished for a life long. Isn’t it sweet to have all these memories dancing merrily in one’s mind when white strands of hair start to appear among the ‘black forest’ of hair?

Without love, one will miss out a lot of unpredictable things in life. Then, there will be no more roller coaster ride in one’s life. Don’t you folks think that it is boring? Don’t you folks think that it is a waste to let life end without trying different ‘emotions’?

I got an equation that was derived by one of my friend when we were chatting. It is as follow:

love = pain = hurt = happiness = stress = pressure

I do agree with it that love is equivalent to each and every adjective and nouns included in the equation above.

People tend to fear those negative ones for the equation really gives one a very insecure impression. No doubt, the game of love is just like a trap, one will have to go through each and every emotion (maybe more than that).

It is all about handling the situation in the game of love. Irrational actions might be useful in here. Unlike solving arithmetic and logic operations, emotions will be involved when handling love. As for me, I choose to mute and escape from it, which makes me unattached to anyone and makes me feel free all the time. Folks, what about you?

'Knock knock....knock knock knock knock.'

This was what i heard this early morning when i was about to doze off into my wonderful dreamland.

I did not expect it to happen so soon. Why God must do this to her? Why God must take her away?

The knock on the door was my housemate informing me that sister of one of our coursemate had passed away around 3a.m. 23/11/06. She was just a 13 year old girl who is not given the chance to enjoy teenage life. Last 2 months, she was diagnosed with limphatic cancer. Admitted into hospital not more than 3 weeks, now there she goes, leaving this unpredictable world.

Incidents that rarely happen among people around me are occuring cases by cases now. This incident really made me speechless. I was dumb struck at that moment. Everything seems to chill at its position. There was nothing i can hear, nothing i can see, nothing i can analyse.

Why those who deserve to live have to lose the right to enjoy life and live their life to the fullest?

Tears,
rebelliously rolled down the cliff of my eyes,
causing heavy rain upon my cheeks.

Tears,
I let out for someone special,
causing me to fall harder and even harder.

Tears,
I hold on to it as long as possible,
causing me to feel extreme sorrow.

Tears,
I never show in front of the special someone,
causing misunderstandings about me.

Tears,
I will show when it is time,
causing my heart to feel lighter.

Tears,
I can't show when escaping,
causing me to be a coward.

Tears,
I can't fight,
causing me to be weak.

Tears,
show it's significance,
in my life,
filled with happy and sad moments,
that will be cherished for all my life...

For the past 2 weeks, I accomplished a few missions that had been delayed since i finish my high school years. I was quite contented with it, though...

However, bad and complicated things happen when we least expect them. It just happened and it happens just when you are having fun and enjoying. This is really an ironic world. Or should i say that God is fair, giving us the chance to appreciate the good and bad things that are happening to us.

Maybe it is time to focus and let go the incidents that caused pain and sorrow,

Maybe it is time to face it and let go some mission that is impossible,

Maybe it is time to accept and let go the hope that is unreachable,

Sadly, i will not let go unless time is running out,

'Regret' will be the last word i wanna say after I let it go.

Just like the river, let it flow but not let it go...

Say bye to last semester and welcome this new semester with open arms!!!!

Saying bye here does not mean forgetting about everything in the past semester. Having a review on my results, i think i did not put in enough effort, of course, the environment in my place here was not that condusive with my blue bed waiting for me.

Since this is the second semester I am here in Multimedia University, Cyberjaya, things that turned out to be awful last semester became something normal and natural to me now. Kind of got use to it, which is good news to me. At least, i manage to keep my eyes wide open during classes, no doubt my mind still likes to fly around somewhere sometimes...

And i can see that it is still up to my own determination. So, strive for your best always, pals...